Short Listing

Today I'd like to talk about... my phone. Yep, that's it. Sounds boring huh? ... Then just leave, whatcha waiting for?

Haha! I don't really mean that. LOL.

Okay, back to topic. 8th December, just got myself my 8th phone in this year. Firstly, don't think that I have lots of money to be spent in this matter, I'm just selling out my phone in order to fund in the next gadget. And I don't really always spend on the "monsters" or "legendary species". LOL. All I want is to get the experience of using them.

Here is my listing of phones changed in this year.

2010.12 - 2011.07 HTC HD2 T8585

2011.03 - 2011.04 Sony Ericsson W980 8GB

2011.07 - 2011.07 Sony Ericsson Satio U1i [11 days]

2011.07 - 2011.07 Sony Ericsson Xperia Arc LT15i [12 days]

2011.07 - 2011.11 Samsung Galaxy Tab P1000 16GB 3G+WiFi

2011.09 - Currently Nokia N96 16GB

2011.11 - 2011.11 Apple iPad 2 16GB WiFi [10 days]

2011.11 - 2011.12 Samsung Galaxy SII i9100 16GB [11 days]

2011.12 - Currently Samsung Galaxy Tab 7.0 Plus P6200 16GB 3G+WiFi

Hmm. I can see there's 4 devices that I've used about 10 days. Surely there's some reasons for letting them go that fast.

HTC HD2 is the craziest phone I ever have. I keep flashing from WM6.5 to Android 2.2 to Android 2.3 and to WP7 too. I think it really gets tired when it's with me. LOL. Backup and flash, and restore. I've really spent a lot of times on that phone. And it lets me learn a lot of things about how to use Android. I mean, know how to use, not that kind of oh-it's-damn-easy thingy. Its not complicated, yet it's not so simple.

SE W980. Simple and pretty. I love the design, fold design still gets my attention. Simple Walkman phone with a little bit of "touch" buttons and 8GB storage. Anyway I have bad experience regarding the Fast Port on it. Can't really listen to music peacefully using it.

SE Satio. 12MP camera? My first move to that stage of 12MP camera which is even higher resolution that my 1000D. LOL. Again, I like the design of that phone, and the camera look. However, S60v5 really makes me... having no thought of turning back to it. Touch UI is not ergonomic and not user-friendly. And the phone's performance is slow. I'm still fond of that phone, if I use it as my back up phone, or just some occasions to show it up.

SE Xperia Arc. Again, SE. The reason I let it go in 10 days is its price is dropping like hell. I can't let my cash invested on it becomes thinner each day. So, I sold it fast. If I still have a chance today to have it in my pocket, I will be really happy. I love the design, very slim and classy. Not only "like", but I "love" it. But anyway, its performance... I feel like my old HD2 is even better than it, except the camera and display. I get quite disappointed with SE for making so few internal memory on it, I just don't have enough space to install all my apps. That is bad.

Samsung Galaxy Tab. Finally, Samsung. I'm so looking forward to have a Galaxy device since Galaxy S and Galaxy Tab is so popular, and most importantly, they looked tempting and tasty to me. I must take one, I tell myself. At last I choose Galaxy Tab, 7" display is in my hand! I can't measure how bulky it is, or how useful it is. It can be fitted into most of my pockets, but it really produces a big bulge. LOL. And it is not so convenient and not light weight. But... Its 7" display trades off almost every trouble. Better display, better web browsing experience, better multimedia and gaming purpose. The problem is that it "only" has a 1GHz processor, which is good (same as Galaxy S), but not good enough (Galaxy SII just rolled out). Its phone functionality also has limitation where it only can use loud speaker for voice calls.

Nokia N96. My reason is simple. I want a cheap phone with good camera, big display, non-touch screen, and WiFi. Sometimes I get tired of using touch screen where sometimes it doesn't respond to my fingers, or my fingers always miss it. Using a typical phone with buttons feel good too, I miss the real tactile feedback of pressing keypad. LOL. The N96 does almost what I've asked for, the only problem is that its processor is slow.

iPad 2. A sudden decision to purchase an iPad 2. Its full of fun, its full of rules of iOS, its full of games. Its very fast, iOS is really responsive on its dual core A5 processor. Camera is lousy but at least it has camera. I've FaceTime-ed for the first time in my life, LOL. I love the 9.7" display, which is really brilliant and responsive. The only problem is, it is too big to be brought around, and its WiFi issue. Its connection to WiFi is very weak, and it disconnects from time to time. I sell it because I found it too hard to be brought around when I go out.

Samsung Galaxy SII. Finally, I have my first dual core phone, I believe that I've chose the one of the best dual core phones out there. Again, Samsung processor is really fast and responsive. It seldom lets me wait even I have at least 9 pages of apps on it. Its very slick, thin and light-weight. But I found that I have difficulties when holding it because it is too light and thin. I almost drop it from my hands for a couple of times. Everything is great, just that I can't really go back to 4.3" display. Its not so useful as my eBook reader. By the way, Super AMOLED Plus display is really awesome and unforgettable.

Samsung Galaxy Tab 7.0 Plus. An upgrade from original Galaxy Tab. Yep, it is dual core, it is Honeycomb, it is slimmer and lighter than the original one. Although I consider that it is a downgrade from SII... This is what I currently want. I don't know how long will I use it. Just, at the moment, I feel alright.

No, I really plan for a short update, but it ends up not really short. Ok, time to sleep. Gotta go back to KL tomorrow and face the reality again. Sigh. Night.

Priority

说实在的，每个人每一天都有二十四小时，不够时间用是肯定的。每天从睡梦中醒来总是有着一大列的事情等着我们去完成。我自问没那个能力去完成每一件事，毕竟我每天都有很多想做到的事，想要达到的目标。就一个很简单的例子，我要好好的刷牙，很有节奏和步骤的刷牙，那个是为了我健康的目的，这何尝不算是一件要完成的事？可是我几乎每天都办不到，每次都轻率的带过。这么小的一件事，我竟然办不到？不可能吧。但，这绝对有可能。

这又怎么有关系到大件事和小件事叻？这是在于我怎么衡量这件事的重要性，或，我在不在乎完成这件事。一些很小件的事，我若是在乎，我就会去做到。我甚至觉得这个＂在不在乎＂更是超越我们理智的范围。潜意识操控？那我就不得而知了，并没了解过那方面的东西。继续刚才的例子，我为什么办不到好好的刷牙，健康的刷牙？原因很简单，我总是睡迟。更具体来说，我把时间留给了睡眠。在睡眠与好好刷牙之中，我选择了睡眠。

而这个就是我今天想说的东西。

我从来不会觉得我有多余的时间，我怎么可能会有多余的时间？同时，我也很奇怪，也很不喜欢别人说我看起来很得空，很轻松。他们何以见得？我知道那种感觉，就是，别人问我有没有时间去这个做那个的时候，大部分的人都会＂突然＂变得很忙，不知道是真忙，还是假忙。总之就是让别人知道自己不够他忙，就输了。这种感觉要不得。我也会有，我努力说服自己，我何必把自己说到那么忙？不如看看自己有没有兴趣，或肯不肯花时间。

我觉得把一切罪名都推给时间还真的有点不负责任。每个人一出生都面对同一个问题，一天只有二十四小时，怎么办？并不是一部分人的问题，而是每个人都处于同一道问题前面。答案是，在于自己怎么管理和运用那仅有的二十四小时。

有些事情总有优先权，比如说，大考即将到来，有些人拼命喊没时间，立刻埋头苦干，有些人也哭嚷着没时间，转个身却在玩game。为什么会这样？难道他们时间特别多？并不见得。他们不在乎？那很难说。我觉得，那只是gaming和娱乐依然是他们的优先选择，而另一部分的人则把学业放在第一位。可笑的是，有点当局者迷，有些人总是不知道选择权都在自己手上。我可以选择把gaming放在比学业高的位置，相等的位置，或较低的位置。这东西，是个选择啊！苦笑。为什么总是怪罪在其他东西身上？为什么说自己被逼？为什么说自己没得选？如果自己能够退一步看看，我相信要了解现况不会难。只是，我发现到的是，往往自己都不会知道，是自己封了自己死路。

我依然会在不知不觉中封自己死路，忘了很多事情其实都有选择的权利和机会。

学习少点责怪别人或身边的东西，很多时候那些都是自己做的选择。自己得为做过的选择负上一定的责任。

瞎说自己没时间，不如想想自己怎么安排时间。我宁愿睡少四个小时来换取四个小时的娱乐时间，因为它占了在我心目中很高的位置。这是我的选择。你要是说学业或是什么事情把你搞到没时间剩下了，那也是你的选择。我从来就不会相信＂有时间剩下＂这句话，因为我也没有时间是多余的，在我眼前只看到你做了的选择，还有所有的优先和位置。

How?

How long I've been blogging using Chinese?

How long I've been talking and complaining about my life?

How far I've gone through?

How complicated those things can be?

How do they cause differences to my life?

How bad is shit?

How can I make it right?

How can I make it better?

How to let go?

思考

我爱思考。

就是喜欢思考。

怎么说？我懂得思考？我擅长思考？

一件事情来龙去脉，怎么发生，怎会无风起浪？不可能。肯定会有某些原因，包括公认很严重，或一些看起来“不太严重”的原因。个人衡量的定义，旁人怎么看的清？影响的力量或阴影，除了当事人之外，其他人只能体量，了解或劝告，而并不可能完全明白。我不明白一些批评怎么下得如此了断，不明白一些事情可以那么绝对，怎么说，怎么可能不是一，就是二这么简单。是非题的确只有两种相对的答案，但往往事实并非如此明朗。因此很多时候我不敢下太多定论，我也觉得没必要把话说得太重。因为喜欢就是喜欢，不喜欢就不喜欢。不管怎么说黑白，事实都不会为了一言一语而改变。喜欢把事情说的很绝对的人，我只能回答“是哦？”，或许在他们面前我会显得很“连这种简单的道理都不懂”的样子，但是我觉得“说话可以先思考吗？”。对，很多时候的我到头来会很胆怯，懦弱。很多时候会被人踩在脚下，看着别人往自己的脸上奚落，看见别人活在光环或群众目光之中，看着别人成为焦点。而我在别人眼中却无法定住视线。抢分，很重要，我还在学。我觉得真正抢眼的人不多，真正能够震撼我，真材实料的人真的不多。其他的滥竽充数总爱嚣张或充胖子，说话头头是道却不堪一击。我也爱抢分，只是那些人，的确是笑话。输给他们，说真的我会不服输，不过想想，他们也让我当笑话了。力争上游，我也还在学，怎么改进自己的生活，怎么往高处爬，怎么才能在未来有个定点，怎么才能在经济上有自由权。我已经让自己的懦弱输给了很多人，我必须往前。

随波逐流，一种很可怕的现象。人总爱道听途说，这里听一点那里听一点然后就装博士医生。拜托，或许这些人可以在回到山上闭关三年再出来分析自己的经验，见解和领悟。人云亦云要到何时？人人都说好的东西，就是好的？这种观念流传了也不只有多少世纪。就比如说我的手机学问，我花上的时间没有八年都有五年，但就事论事，我觉得没有理由去质疑别人真正的经验或心得。我依然觉得我知道的范围就好像沙漠中的一粒沙。很多东西总要学习。我尝试过的我才懂得作出比较，我并不能接受无凭据的意见，而我觉得那不是傲慢，而是意见过于轻浮。人总以为自己懂的东西很多，处处装懂，而固步自封。人最怕的情况就是停止了学习。一件事情怎么可能会好到不能再进步了？一些人怎么要求会越来越少？推说是被现实打败？这不关现实的事，而是自己思维运行的方式。很简单的打个比喻，刷牙，要怎么刷才会更好的杜绝细菌残留？准备菜肴，要怎么做菜才更可口？每件事情都有值得更好的理由。最可怕的就是人们以为自己很好了，而停止了自己进步的机会。这是善意的劝言，好，或许我没资格说劝言，我只能说这是我个人觉得对的事情。

投诉，一件累人而应该带着后续行动的事情。人总爱要求自己的生活能怎样怎样，要求周边的事情应该怎样怎样，为什么不是那样那样，或是过分的去要求别人应该怎样怎样。人受委屈之后，伤心之后，总该发泄。投诉或许是最容易的发泄方法。我本身一遇到不如意的事，也很轻易的找到倾诉对象，表达自己的不满。投诉的一方或许只是纯粹发泄，“或许”发泄后会好一些；聆听的一方好好听着，也想对方发泄之后能好过些，不想对方过后还会被同一件事情拖累久久，总之，希望对方的情况会有起色。不是浪费时间，人受到压力总是需要适量的发泄而再出发。再出发？或许很多人在投诉后都忘了这点。为什么会投诉？因为周边的事情不顺利？因为过不了自己那关？人总是希望一切一切会很顺利，但现实中并非如此，这句俗话不必我说吧。人要改变，而不是要求周边其他事情或人物改变。一个环境不顺利，就要改变自己的看法或角度。要改善自己的生活，就要改变自己现有的应对方式。一件事情，不同的应对方式，才会有不同的收获和后果。怎么可能用一种方式，做同一件事，而祈求有不同的结果？山不转路转。穷则变，变则通。投诉之后，应该聚集那个力量来思考自己下一步该怎么走。接受或不接受。接受的话，难听点为委曲求全，好听点就应该学习怎么放大自己的接受范围，尝试接受不完美和不顺利的事情。不能接受的话，就改变。想个办法跳出原来的框框。太累就去放假，什么叫不得空还是不能？那是不敢，不敢改变自己应对问题或压力的方式，或是害怕。像刚才说的，不敢或害怕踏出改变的一步，事情怎么会“突然间”变得如意起来？逃避也好，很多东西最后都是自己选择的。不如说一个工作岗位，如果真的很不满，那就改变自己说话的方式，待人处世的方式，或是想法，最勇敢的打算就是最后一步，辞职。当然，换个环境不代表能过得更好，换一个自己，肯定会让自己好过些。朋友若是能够操控一个人的情绪，只有接触太多，寸步难移才会照成的。扩大自己的生活圈子，永远没有坏处。朋友不嫌多，至少问题来了，还有更多分散注意力的方式。如果能够花点心思为自己的生活点缀，做些不一样的决定，生活说不定不会死死沉沦在同一个方程式里。高不高兴是自己选择的，如果不敢行动或改变，我只能说，你想改变的念头败在自己固步自封的念头底下。那，我也不知要怎么帮忙了。朋友，自救。

朋友，总是很多来来去去的。我没有很多很疯狂的友情，因为我不敢投注太多。多谢从前的朋友，总让我觉得友情很不堪一击。此时此刻，高兴就好，下一秒，再打算。我看起来比较喜欢孤立自己，是因为我觉得自己才是最值得信任的朋友。所有的大问题，大纠纷，到最后也只不过烟消云散。朋友没了，再找，总会有新的。好朋友那又怎样？依然会有代替的机会。就好比生意，盛兴的时候就投注多点吧，觉得是时候了就抽身，转投其他方面。这是一直在旋转的轮盘，看的是缘分和运气。多不开心都好，过后回望，这一切只是小小的风波，我依然珍惜我觉得应该珍惜的，就是现在。

Moving on

All along with those worthless disappointed feelings, I've decided to move on. Life just won't stop by and ask, "How are you?". I look at myself. I really had bad days throughout this week. If I can choose, I wouldn't let this kind of feeling ruins my life. If only I can choose. I think, I can. And I tell myself that I must.

No one deserves better treating from anyone else except himself or herself.

Although I need an answer desperately, how can I get through? How can I manage to ignore my little emotion inside? How can I tolerate? How can I accept?

No matter what, I will still appreciate what I have, what I own previously. And all those memory. Everything will be just fine, and gets better in time.

倒数

疲


倦


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何时的我写部落格就成一片谩骂?没错，发泄而言，这是一个好地方。其实下了笔，就不可能是不为人知的秘密了。这么的公开，这么的敞然。一连几天的我没有睡得高枕，问题总是发生了。我可以避免，但我并不觉得避免算是解决方法。逃避更是无药可救。逃避可能换来平静，可自己是真的要啃下那股气，有必要吗？没人会明白。而且换来的是永无止境的得寸进尺。至少在我的个案里，这是成立的。

安静面对的话，这世界仿佛变得更吵闹。一次一次的挑战我的极限。我不想安静，我宁愿变得更吵闹。安静并没有胜算，我也不会更好过。每件事都是有原因的，我明白，我不想谈，反而我比较在乎对方的极限，而偏偏就让他人燃烧过界限。忍。我已经做了一段时间。

往好处看齐，往前看齐，每个人也想。每个人见解不同，目标也不同。绝对的事说多，我只会笑言太天真。天真不天真其实也并没有给其他人造成伤害，所有得到的好处坏处当然也只有自己知道。请互相尊重，我并没有权利分享他们所谓的好处，那为什么我要受这种煎熬的过程。你发达你的事，别挡住我的去向，也别干扰。如果只是单方面的让步，何以达到和平的效果？

换个话题，错事做了，我就得承担后果。我努力辩解，但发挥不到作用，反而对方看似更想逃离。好，在公式化之间，我只想过关。我让对方失望了，我只能尽力修补，我并没有铁定要回到最开始，因为不实际，也没必要。当我的心底是这么想，祝我好运吧。

希望周遭改变是不可能，或很艰难，我觉得改变自己会更好。希望我会找到个方式来面对当前的局面。失望之后的我目前并不想当什么也没发生过。算我小心眼，小器，我会觉得很可笑。如果根本没发现，我觉得算了吧，不要也罢，这些多余的关系。如果觉得莫名其妙，相对的我还觉得有药救。我不是在空等命运安排，而是我认为这种局面被我看到后，我已经觉得我没有主动的理由了。你不是我，你不会明白，当然我不是你，我也越来越不懂你。至少，我尝试了解过。

不懂，我写一大堆垃圾，也让人读了一大堆垃圾。我可以很忙，但对于情绪的面对和时间的安排我还是空出了很多时间。

W.H.Y

不明白一些事情为什么可以那么理所当然
不明白一些事情为什么只可以是对的
而且不明白为什么一些人可以一面倒的相信
这是所谓的坚持？还是盲目？

有时候觉得
我片刻的动摇
内心的争斗
总是折磨着我的嘴脸

各位请坚持自己觉得对的事情
各位请别打扰我的生活
各位请学会互相尊敬
我的偏见无可救药

我依然一面倒的沉溺于我的偏见与骄傲
很简单的道理
每个人都有自己秉持的信念
你对，我不会有好处
我对，我也不会给你好处

如果成熟带来了这些不必要的自信与狂妄
那我觉得已经没有逗留的理由

对号入座的
请自便
觉得奇怪的
请放心

安静
是最好的解决方式

Its all about the Money

钱钱钱

改变人的思维

每个人愿意成为的奴隶

不知不觉的下贱与虚伪

这是催促我改变的警告

还是纯粹短暂的失去方向

Settled Down

Moving to new home, new environment, new lifestyle, new semester...

I suppose, new me.

Haha. Today is just the second day since I started my new semester, and the third day since I moved in. I still have lots of luggage to tidy up, all those wanted and unwanted things, which I carried around all these years. I don't even know whether they are still useful or not. For example, I found two bottles of contact lens liquid last night because my friend needed it. However I noticed that they were expired quite a long time ago, which was 2008. Shocked. Maybe lots of things I should have thrown away.

However, some useful things like clothes hanger, I don't even know where I've lost it. I guess I should buy another one. Some I just don't know where they go.

But I find that my mind is not really good enough to remember all stuffs. I forget to bring back any fork and spoon! That is just... pathetic. LOL. I don't have a mirror in my room, can't really believe it! But it's okay, the awful situation just lasts for one day. I've bought one last night. Haha.

I think there are still lots and lots of things that I can't remember at this moment.

想得到释放 只有投降

It means nothing, just a lyric. 你太猖狂. Love that song. I wish someone would be 猖狂 to me as well, but now it all seems like I'm being enough 猖狂 for someones. Okay, stop all these rojak language.

This week I went to karaoke for 3 times! Woah, so crazy but indeed so happy. Life would be very enjoyable for me if it is always spent with friends and family. Quality time, so called. Last night we were singing for 5 hours. Enough to claim back that 0.5 hour which we lost last time. That was awesome! We picked up many old and classic songs. Some of them used of the "new" songs when I was in primary or secondary school. And eventually now they were transformed and saved in my memory, as old songs that accompanied my teenage periods, or when I used to be a boy.

LOL.

Anyway, that was so true.

And now, September has came. Thesis titles are out, I'm seriously headache. For this semester break, I have 6 weeks to spare after my internship. This is the 5th weeks now. I would say, this is a little too long for me. I was like doing nothing everyday besides sleeping, eating, online, and watching drama. Part of me feel like I have wasted much time. Anyway, finishing an important and urgent stuff was a big achievement of this break.

LOL.

Again, that was so true.

I don't know how much time I need to be fully recovered. At this moment, I'm just fine. I had underestimated it and I thought I could go out and work soon too, but I'm not in that case yet. Maybe, I guess, I have no problem to go for a trip. Fun, fun, think about that, you'll know what it is.

LOL.

Inspire me

I miss photography so much. As I'm too free these few weeks, I've got nothing better to do, besides sitting at home and wait for recharging my battery. Finally, yesterday I'm out to order another new spectacles. Hooray! I'm able to walk now, but not yet able to run. Last night suddenly I saw a word "self-potrait photography" which inspires me quite a lot, as I can imagine, until that I decided to make, or said to create something. I spent such few hours just to shoot and finish a single photo. Not the above one, which is impossible to shoot inside my home.

Haaaha, I couldn't tell my feeling after finish editing this photo. Just one word, weird. Its exactly the same in my mind, I mean the idea is there, but the finishing is not up to my satisfaction yet. I need more skills in it. Anyway it is really funny to play this around, so I ask my sister to be my model too. I have the other shot of my sister just now. Photography really needs lots of inspiration. I've lost the chance to snap photos in the gathering last week, as I'm unable to attend it. (Sorry organizer...) Need some chances to shoot using my camera. Its just too pity to be left inside my bag...

Sitting or Standing or Lying

This is the third week I finish my internship. Glad. At least I have something goes on following my schedule for this 6-7 weeks. Now, need some serious rest. Watching dramas at home, sweet. Hehe. Hopefully the next plan I'll have it done too. Looking forward for a trip. Holiday, left not much =(

Its over!

Finally this kind of life has came to an end. A bit sad, but I'm truly relieved. I've planned at least 1 month for holiday since I really seldom stay at my hometown. I shouldn't be like this. Haha.

Today is the last day for my internship. Everything works fine, and I feel like today's time passes so fast. I brought my camera to workplace but don't have that chance to take photos with my colleagues and boss. And after work, we still have our first time "outing" to OveTime at Old Klang Road. Its quite out of the plan, actually Ivan and I are planning to have our dinner at Solaris Dutamas. Hmm. Things change. But in the end, we have another exhausted night as we're drunk without eating anything before drinking, that's suck!

Okay, I think I have too much to catch up. But for internship, I think I have almost settled everything. Logbook, reports, surveys. LOL. I hate paper works.

Been told a lot about myself by my colleague last night. He sees me quite through, sigh, inspire me quite a lot. Thank to him of course, and I shall have some change, from time to time. At least, in my mind.

Night.

不算新的生活

对，这阵子忙有的没的。回到KL，开工，新住所，搬家，见朋友，聚会，摄像，手机。

这次工作与以往不同，internship，还真是第一次，应该也只有一次。工钱少，工作时间蛮长。唉…Office里又很无聊。

还在适应期，终于办理宿舍了。新的地方，新的生活环境。

先写到这里，工作忙了反而没什么心机写了。

Leave

转眼之间，有时时候说再见了，或许应该说，终于是时候说再见了。以前一直期待的，现在到了，心里反而会有点舍不得和遗憾。丢了很多东西，翻起了很多记忆，照片，电影票。甚至一些从第一学年就一直留，留，留到现在第三年的。有用的，选择被收起来，继续的留。没用的，全都变成了垃圾，连楼梯旁的垃圾桶都不够装。干净了，收拾整齐了，明天就要回家。

新闻，身旁的朋友很多莫名其妙的住不到宿舍，心中难免不忿，可是也不能做什么。还有时间，至少是九月才开学，还可以考虑下一步该怎么走。上诉或搬迁。最重要的是不好破坏为了考试的准备。

有点傻，竟然想到宿舍的各个角落拍张照留念。到时回来的感觉已经不一样，不会忘记的是自己住了这里三年，当年傻傻的第一年，到现在。做过的每一件事，聊过天的每一个人，都值得纪念。

Slap

What a long time. Exam period makes me don't have much feeling to express, so I've got nothing to write. Or maybe just too busy to study at last minute? I know its bad, and I'm not that good at last minute too. I take quite some times to understand some simple things too, but everytime I repeat this mistake. My bad.

Sounds not happy and cheerful right? Yes I'm totally sad now. Yesterday after settling my final exam for this semester, I feel relieved, and at the same time, I feel sad for my FEA. I swear I know how to do all the questions, I know the methods and I did them all, but guess what, my substituted values are wrong. When I realize I was wrong, I'm already at the third page of the solution of that particular question. And I don't have enough time to erase, change or redo. I'm frustrated and my hands even, started to shake. My tears almost burst because this is the most fucking case in the world. I rather feel like I don't know how to do at all. I guess, in total of 40 marks, after I've substituted all the wrong values, how much can I get? 5? 10? In the end, I just have my methods and calculations all done, just wish that, MAYBE, calculations carry marks. But that doesn't change my mind, I just feel stupid, because of the wrong values. I feel like, I rather don't do all those past years questions, don't revise much, don't be so stressed for that subject! Perhaps my marks will just be the same like I didn't study much, but in fact I did, and I've wasted all my efforts because of those stupid units!

I'm speechless after that paper. Maybe after CIM I have some bad feelings too, but this time the feeling is much stronger, perhaps I give too much hope on this paper... And I'll be disappointed, again!

Yesterday, hanging out is the sweetest things to cover up my sadness towards FEA. I've totally forgotten about it, we chit chat and watch a nice movie. That is just so... sweet. A sweet escape from my emo-ness. I know I'll be very sad and disappointed of that paper/my performance, its just the matter of time. And its now, I'm sad of it.

So, it's Friday today. I not yet sleep, last night spending all my time online, have fun, watch a movie, YouTube, videos, forums, phones bla bla bla. Just now I take a nap then go and have my log book for internship, and that's just fine. Then I walk alone to SKET to check the results for Etnik. Yes, it already comes out, really fast and efficient before I can take a breathe.

So here comes another big disappointment. It makes me think in a very negative way, am I wrong again? My studying method or what? And everytime, these bullshit subject I just get bullshit marks. Or am I expecting too much from myself? I done it bad again. I almost wipe my eyes to make sure whether the results are correct. Yes it is. And I hate this feeling. I'm very sad and disappointed (again), walking back alone to room, under the freaking hot sun, my sweat flows like water straight to my toes. I'm tired, its like I wish I can just sit down in the halfway and think back, what have I done wrong? And why am I being such responsible to check those results for all my friends, and I end up like this? I feel stupid, numb, there's no need to be so excited to see those fucking results. And I hate myself too. I know I can't predict future, and I know too, I thought I'm better than that, I mean, better than now.

Too much problem to deal with, its like I've done too much mistakes, and I've got much things to learn, still! I'm tired... Why is the reality so cruel? Why am I always got freaked out and fucked up? And why can't I hope the best for myself? Why is there too much disappointment in life? I know I'm asking some stupid questions, but, I just can't find answers for them.

I wish that, each time when I open my eyes, I'll be having a new day. Life's unpredictable, I know. Life's not a bed of roses, I understand too. I wish that I can accept all those ups and downs easily, that's it. Final's end, this semester ends, waiting to go home, waiting for internship, all those boring documents. I want holiday.

一半

Two papers are gone, and I totally didn't sleep well these few days. My sleeping time is at morning to noon, everyday. Wow. Even though maybe I have slept around 6-8 hours, I still feel like... weird... Wow am I sleeping so late? Perhaps studying at night, or more precisely, midnight is my favour.

Just finish another paper. The second paper, which feels like its the first paper of this sem. Sigh. Its quite full-of past year, and all the answers are sharp and clear, they're in the slides of course. Just that I keep on forgetting those things. And I've studied quite a lot of things that didn't come out, memory is full of those... rubbish... There are 5 questions, and all are compulsory, so no other choice. Means that if really can't do one of them, then 10-15 marks are gone! So gone...

Studied whole night, and just slept around 30 minutes because of those bullshit noisiest. LOL. And in the end... died. @@

Forgetful

I forget to study, I forget to do so many things. Study week is almost gone, today is the last day, and tomorrow is my first paper. I need good luck, give me good luck! These two days I have terrible sleeping time, almost from afternoon till evening, then stay up all night. Studying, but sometimes can't really concentrate. All these boring subjects, I wonder why should I take them. Almost lose my direction, lose myself too. But this isn't really the first time I feel so, take it easy, and deal with it, I've told myself.

Good luck, to me, and all my friends.

Week for studying

My blogspot reading list is getting bored. So few updates by my friends out there. I wonder, is blogging really not that popular among my friends? Haha.

So for this semester, I'm sitting for 4 papers, respectively on 25 April, 28 April, 3 May and 5 May. This study week, truly, I'm quite normal. Usually my study week will be my time for new phones, that's my ugly schedule, but I keep repeating it. Proudly to say, this semester, not (yet).

So few outings too, compared to the past study weeks. I'm not paying hundred percent attention on studies too. Just that, I'm too poor to hang out. Opps. Haha!

Yo, someone is complaining that I put most of my stuff on web. I agree too. Ok, I'll try my best to filter and control (behave) myself on Facebook and here. Lesser posts related to personal stuffs. Hehe. So, let's talk about general stuffs, hope that won't be boring. Hehe.

House stuff, hope that we can settle it soon, as well as furnitures too. =D

Immediately after final paper then I'll be going home, to rest maybe 1 week, then come back again for internship. Yes, finally it comes... Hope it will be great and interesting!

晴天

编排得有点乱。

Pottery就这样草草了事，感觉都没做到什么。Product也因为IP的关系而没法拿出来摆在摊子，难免有点失望。算是完成的作品偏偏派不上用场。我不想怪罪IP，因为我知道，我并没融入其中。当天九点到五点，我选择发呆，面对一切的烂情况和废话，我需要很高的EQ。最难过的事，即将过去。最难挨的时刻，就这样。坦言这一年因为种种关系导致我在这个科目里并没有真正受益，没学到什么东西。就是一个，错，字。有种感觉我还真的不适合这一行，也许是因为全天下对IP的重视度，（在FB句句关于IP，总被挂在嘴边），搞到我完全感觉不到我原来是跟他们同一个科系的，好笑ing。

Facebook的正面status？这几天心情也总算大起大落。我不要别人来评论我，不如先问问自己有没有资格。我只想说，这几天也非常的累。对，我没有IP做，因为沟通的关系，然而我不想把问题说得太清，或者太过绝对。错的一方永远不会知道自己有错，除非有人点醒。我知道自己有错，可是我也知道只有自己这么脆弱，这么的想。每个人想的东西毕竟不同，每个人要的东西不同，每个人的处事方式也不同，每个人的思维判断逻辑更是有着很大的分别。那几天我睡得不好，不懂我的人应该认为我这么这么的得空，应该完全很自由，很享受才对。我只能说，外界看的，都是隔层莎，雾里看花。然而人总爱道听途说，自己不知道却要硬硬说得头头是道。看好戏就有他们的份。难听的话，自己不知道发生什么事麻烦你们就先搞好自己组的事情，嘴巴静点我不笑你们是哑巴的。我能说什么，承认自己无能，也承认这个世界上什么样的人都有。沟通这门事，我搞不好了，我尽力了。可是一只手掌是拍不响的，要的是机会，单方面怎么可能会有“配合”？我宁愿自己有机会去工作坊割伤弄淤我的手，也不想听那些流言蜚语。精神上的打击，这不是我要的结果，是被制造出来的玩笑。

已经很婉转了。

晴天，赶快来。

HD2 -> HD7

Sounds interesting! Finally few months of waiting and research, I've decided to try to flash my HD2 to LEO70 Rom, which is firstly developed by DFT and published on XDA Forum by HD2Owner. Few hours ago, I've tried version 1.03, and now I'm using the latest version 1.04. Basically I just choose this rom randomly, as there're still some different rom out there. Anyway, just try my luck.

But it isn't really just TRY, it will totally format my SD card, ie. all memory will be gone, and, my WinMo 6.5 Energy Rom will be gone too. I need to back up all the contacts, but its okay, I always did it. Just that if I want to go back to 6.5, I need to re-install and re-setting all the stuff inside.

These will really take me lots of time, as I want it to be perfect all the time... Haha! That is why I'm not dare to flash new rom. But my 6.5 memory is getting low and I don't know why, maybe the dump memory and files are getting more, so I've decided to format it, hence, I flash it.

Just in case, I use another SD card to try out Windows Phone 7 rom. Don't forget I still have Android MCCM HD V4.0 Desire HD rom on the other hand, I'll still need it. My extra SD card is only a 2GB card. WP7 is very choosy about the SD card being used, but luckily my 2GB old SD card still works like a charm in WP7. In fact, it is really smooth!

So I read through as many articles as I can before flashing it to WP7. Installation guide is easy. Developers seem have provided everything. Firstly, just plug in my HD2 in 6.5 through USB Active Sync connection, then install MAGLDR and LEO70. The process is very fast too! (Sorry I'm not providing the step-by-step guide, the guides are everywhere so just google it~)

Installation of DWT.exe (LEO70)

The computer's side. DFT!

So after the whole process finish (about few minutes), my HD2 reboots with original Energy start-up screen, then it will automatically booted into MAGLDR for couples of seconds. And, here it goes! HTC boot screen, and Windows Phone Logo!

I'm really excited when I see this! Yey, Windows Phone 7 is started! I almost shouted and jumped at room, but my roommate was sleeping la... hahahah!

HD2 T8585 -> HD7 T9292

Of course there're still some settings to be done...

So, finally I've booted my HD2 into HD7. Err, not really HD7 because it is LEO70 build, a Windows Phone 7 rom. Until now, I've used it around 20 hours, less than a day. There're of course some problem still. Some are the problem of HD2-ported-rom itself, and some are the cons of WP7. The main problem is the bad camera. It has no autofocus, the settings are very very little and limited. There're green tint if using flash to capture photos. And overall the colour tone of image produced are blur and not sharp. 5MP camera is totally spoilt. BUT, the video camera is getting me a big surprise! It can record 720P video like a charm, quite smooth too. Continuous auto focus is there, just that it is a bit dark, but I think it is normal for a phone. The video camera has done its part, hehe..

The key mapping of the physical buttons are quite weird. I keep on pressing the wrong buttons and it ends up going here and there, Bing Search and IE. Errrm. The volume is too loud although I've set it to be 1 over 30. Wow, but I guess it is way better than the volume is too low then. So, the sound/speaker quality is not that inspiring too.

No marketplace access. It prompts me to insert an Windows Live activation code which I don't have. Sigh. I must get one from Microsoft to get it works. Same for the Hotmail synchronizing, XBox services, Live services. I'm still on the way to figure out how to install the signed XAP application files which I have downloaded, as I have no access to Marketplace to download new and useful apps and games.

Overall the OS and UI is really smooth and simple. It can be said as limited too, too few things on a phone, compared to its older production like WinMo 6.5 (which has too much things on a phone). The tiles homescreen design is indeed very intuitive and user friendly. I love the sweep my fingers left and right to view more. It responds very fast as I simply touch or press buttons, big thumb!

From idle to wake up, I just need to press Power button once, it responds very fast too, unlike in the Android builds. The transition animation is nice, the theme can be changed into different colours to avoid bore. The Zune player, the music+video gallery are new and I love browsing my media and music library using it. People Hub gathers all the contacts from my email accounts, and Facebook accounts too, they links it all.

Another thing that I just learn is how to use Zune. I have to install this to build a connection between the phone and computer. After few trial (how noob am I...), I finally know how to use it to transfer all my media files among my HD2/7 and my computer, including photos, videos, and music.

Hope that battery drainage won't be serious on my phone. Haha. Otherwise, I really enjoy it! Thanks for all the guides on XDA forum and Youtube of course. Hahaha...

轻便

星期三！整个下午非常的无聊，无所事事。整个晚上却在玩Light Painting，有趣！这样就过了一天，晚安咯 =D

Settled

And finally the photo editing has came to an end. Glad. I was playing around with PS, and learnt quite a lot from friends. Although in the end I might not get any realistic results such as final exam. I felt like I have learnt a lot, the most important thing is I'm happy with this hobby. Photography rocks!! People around might can't understand this, as they can't understand when something comes out to be so beautiful, I feel so contented. Wow, I say like I've taken some great photos. But I know I'm not, I'm always still learning. And counting down the days until now, I have my 1000D with me around 9 months. Yes it is still below a year. A speedlite has helped me a lot, especially in the recent MATB2 dinner. Looking back on my first year, I was using cameraphone, second year I was using digital camera. So of course the photo quality is getting better. I love this kind of memory. Clear, and vibrant. Although this time I'm still unable to use the speedlite in a proper way, causing some failed shots with weird lighting. It's much better than shaky and blurred photos. Some photos are still out of focus, hehe. So, the chosen photos are already all uploaded on Facebook. A complete album that takes me few days to finish it. A small achievement for me. Haha...

I wish I'll have another chance to take part in such dinner again...

I want to have better photos always... Haha!

So this is the last MATB2 in my life, guess so...

Quite satisfied with it, except for the food. Nice hotel, enjoy the night too.

Today started the week 13, wow the final exam is damn near right now! My week 12 is really holiday-ed. Outings, shopping, online. Without paying any attention on my studies. Luckily I don't really lack behind. Yes the whole world out there is doing IP.

Saturday's rolling-out-there is quite crazy and without much plan. Spent some money but in the end I get some new experience only, those places aren't really nice. Hahaha...

I would look forward for the next time, for better venues. Haha!

Tonight we're gonna

Tonight, MATB2! I think this is the last time I'm able to join this event, since my first year. And this year, this time will be the third time. Oh no, means my third year is going to end soon too. Everything is just soooo fast! Hope everybody's dressing up, grooming up, and enjoy the night. But I ain't having any party after all, I wish to, but my friends around me are just... not that kind. Everyone, just enjoy the teenage dreams, young and energetic! How about me? I just wish that I'll not be bored to death tonight. Getting to know lesser and lesser friends in college, more to "lubuk" some more, that's why. Therefore this will be the last time.

Thanks for all the MATB2 committees too, for bringing this up!

Time to have fun ~ XD

Actually this period will be quite busy for me. Just that I'm getting more and more free this week. (Without worrying my dear IP.) I'm not feeling well about it, or I can say, I'm sick of it. Anyway, everything's still cool and guess what, it will end in 1.5 month!! I hope everyone will not be regret of what we have done or we have decided for this moment. Cheers!

So, I'll continue with my holiday as if I'm not taking that course.

And everyday, I'm still doing the same route. Gadgets. Hehe... Just let go my W980 yesterday, and it feels quite good now. Haha!

Enjoy the music ~

蠢顿一时

我的天，心想自己来搞好W980，怎知弄巧反拙，现在完全陷入死亡边缘，等待埋葬。小聪明这次用不着了，就当教训吧。所以，N76回到怀抱里，重新出发。=)

我还真的厉害，就为这件事浪费了两天的时间。W980，使用期，28天，帅！

The: Sucker Punch

Sucker Punch (2011)

Emily Browning ... Baby Doll

Abbie Cornish ... Sweet Pea

Jena Malone ... Rocket

Vanessa Hudgens ... Blondie

Jamie Chung ... Amber

Wow its a great series of posters from the movie "Sucker Punch". All of them are indeed really pretty and seems so "animated". Cool! This movie is just released yesterday, and today, wcw and I are "unprepared" to watch this kind of movie. I mean, our first choices would be "The Eagle" or "The Unknown". (Yea I haven't watch both of them.) Anyway this movie looks delicious and "suck" us away to purchase tickets. LOL.

Its director is Zack Snyder, basically its the director from "300" and "Watchmen". So, big name? Indeed it has done his job, pretty nice effects, everywhere. I mean those 3D effect, slow-mo! The slow motion portrait of bullets, bombs, guns and knives, cutting away bodies (of robot), bombing those enemies and buildings are awesome! Girls are pretty and elegant, finely drafted in animation. Its like I'm watching Final Fantasy, but this one is actually produced by real actresses. I can say, nice animation. Baby Doll is cute, Sweet Pea is beautiful, and Rocket is cool! Love the way they kill those enemies, they're like really strong and powerful. Jumping higher than sky, dangerous but pretty actions are everywhere throughout the film. I notice the soundtracks too, just on the spot, nice and suitable music/songs when dancing and fighting. Yes, I'm not watching in 3D but it feels like 3D!

What about its story? I like the beginning part, where Baby Doll is tortured by her stepfather and being sent to so-called mental hospital. That part is pretty amazing with nice sound effect. She looked really pathetic, and she can do nothing, no one listen to her. Her mom is dead and her stepfather want to rape her little sister. She tries to help, but at last her little sister is killed by that stepfather. But in the end, she is blamed for murdering her own little sister and being sent out for mental treatment. I like the tone which is almost black and white, sad and sorrow tone. And the way the movie is being captured.

Then what else? Things suddenly change. The mental hospital becomes a place for prostitutes? OMG, am I getting this wrong? Maybe not, its just more to a "theater". So they are the performers to entertain the customers. Baby Doll meets some friends/sisters there. The most amazing but weird part is when she starts dancing, she enters a different world where she and her friends have a task to encounter and achieve somethings, including map, fire, knife, key, and last one is the mystery. In the movie, her dance is supposed to be wonderful, which drags everyone's attention away. But we never see her dancing, in fact, the transition takes place, and she's in the war zone. Wow. Such a transition.

So the story, just search for the synopsis, I believe its everywhere. Frankly, it is not really attractive, and lags much behind the effects that it has. Therefore, just pay attention to the effects. That is cool and awesome. Haha!

Cool right? The graphic and their customs.

Did I forget to mention about Jogoya today? I have a great chance to have this lunch promotion cheaper and cheaper! Quite worthy! Hahaha XD Although it is just 2 hours, I can't really try most of the food. But I crazily eat the Haagen Dazs and try most of the flavours available there. Love the Mango, Mango Sorbet, and Belgium Chocolate, but some are not really nice... Anyway, it worths quite a lot there. I'm quite crazy, throwing all types of seafood into my mouth, except for crab as I don't know how to serve that. Two hours are pretty short, we eat, then take photos, chit chat, have fun, searching around for food, then that's all.

This is my very first time to eat buffet at Jogoya! And what a long time ddn't visit Starhill Gallery, until I forget its location. LOL. Everywhere is still amazingly wonderful, so damn high class.

Another thing, not related to this movie. Hmm... Don't know how to start talking about this in a sudden. I guess, my friends know what happens. LOL just assume that I didn't talk anything.

保持微笑

这次用中文，纯粹写写心情，毕竟这么多天没写了，还真的想念这里，感觉少了一个精神寄托。上个周末我大概把所有时间花在CC Trip上了…相信这次真的是我最后一次去了，而我也给了自己和他们一个机会，只是最后还是败给自己的first year。那次的好玩程度，和省钱程度跟这次真的没得比。首先，地点选到同一个，也就是Pangkor Island，可是住的地方不一样。上回是住在一间三层楼的排屋，这回则是分开住在同一层的三间apartment。看到分别？一间家的交流肯定会比较多，比如说，在家依然可以有活动，谈天或游戏，就连走上走下都肯定会碰见，再聊聊天，打声招呼，交流肯定会比较多。说回这次的三间apartment，同一条走廊，同一条街，只是个这那么远。回到apartment的活动，就是休息，睡觉，冲凉，各忙各的。当然住在一起的还是有交流到，只是相对的少。另外一点就是，apartment反而比较贵。

下不下海潜水又给了我们一个选择，少过一半的人竟然选择不下水。忘了提总共有多少人…总共有三十多人，十多个人下水，换句话说就是有二十多个人没有下水。而我，就是没下水那个，因为第一年去过了，很好玩，可是很晕，最后还呕了，搞得整个人过后一整天都没什么精神，现在还依稀记得。蛮辛苦的，所以这次就选择不下咯。第一天还没什么影响，因为都是一起的活动，吃的，拍照的，逛逛的。而第二天问题就出现了。超过一半的人很早起，一起去早餐。过后一半的就去下水，另一半再去逛逛再回家休息，算是等待。另外一群人过后才起床，过后就是拖拖拖…拖延；等等等…等待。最后收拾好去早/午餐，再过一阵子却是还车，check out的时候了，所以总的来说，第二天节目安排算是混乱吧，等待的时间多过玩乐的时间。可是听说下水的蛮好玩，只是自己没什么想去。是我要求高？或许我不该拿之前的来做比较，因为那时有学长带领。反而这次我在怀疑senior有没有guide到。不过，我不在局里，知道的也不多。我不能说这次的我非常之满意，只是至少比去年的有进步。 ^^

好啦，批评这么多，自己都不会做咯。

今天星期四了，这四天基本上算充分吧。星期一早上去Mcd早餐，特地跑去KL Sentral，蛮疯的，而且还很早起床！厉害，上课不见我这么勤劳，心虚。那一整天也忙上课，太早醒反而下午都很累很爱睡。星期二依然很忙上课，没有午餐，课取消，最后只是在聊天。拜三再去Mcd早餐，然后做pottery，要赶product了，没什么天分，最好不要再裂了！唉…IP有东西要改，感觉越来越渺茫了，不知做不做得出来，材料买了一半，我还没付钱，很穷，还在欠别人钱，唉…今天是上课天，也没午餐晚餐，只有宵夜和零食，很不健康。

吃了两天Mcd早餐，很便宜，也很腻了，哈哈！还没试的，要去的就快去，三十一日截止咯。花超过五块钱就送两份早餐，算是很值得！哈哈！每天晚上都宵夜，这个坏习惯越来越严重，重点是花更多钱，还有花更多时间，搞到每天晚上明明很多时间，都不见了。手头上的东西一直拖拖拖。Intern的文件希望快点搞定。屋子的文件算是告一段落，之前的懊恼和问题暂时说拜拜，只是五月开始的实习真的想到就累，那么远，该怎么办，很担心，没交通工具真的很烦恼。星期六的大件事希望只是一时情绪的起伏，我不会放弃，希望自己还会有机会。

明天，期待Jogoya咯，有生以来还是第一次，没吃过啊！

晚安~

Weekend and... Holiday?

A short simple update before I'm going for bed. Today, finally Ethnic is over! Today is our presentation day for Ethnic, although in the process it is quite random and not so smooth, I mean the preparation period, but at last, we've made it and I feel proud of your all contribution. Thanks you guys! Yup I'm not the presenter, I'm the one who stand beside and click the slides. My 2 minutes video is quite random too (again), I realize my computer don't have Windows Movie Maker then I just download one Windows Live Movie Maker. It is really simple to use, as it offers quite a limited number of settings, and that's why I can finish it faster.

All the funny parts such as showing the food and the clothes, even the Q&A sessions, making me feel real good. Haha... Funny... Good job to all of my team members, cheers!

So tomorrow, later is Saturday, its time for CC Trip. To Pulau Pangkor again, and I hope, this time will be just full of fun! Yey! Looking forward to it. Time to have short sleep too, night.

p/s: I'm seriously broke! Thanks bro Zack Ann =)

Britney is back: Femme Fatale!

Yo, welcome and she's back, few days ago with her latest album Femme Fatale! (Not official yet I guess). Kind of excited when I start listening to the whole album. So until now although I've just played the whole album only for few times, there's something I feel about it. As pop, it is really doing a good job, and the most important thing is, it is so my type!

First of all, Till The World Ends is... I guess, normal. It reminds me much of Ke$ha actually, especially the chorus, which I don't really like. It is not doing better. But for the verse and music, also the bridge, not bad! The second track Hold It Against Me is the first single of this album. Its a shout-out of this album of course, and Britney is coming back, since January. Yea I like it very much, and it has quite a number of play count in my iTunes too. I think most of you have heard of it, if you're concerned about western pop music. Just that the video, eww. It could be better, as a come-back song.

It has a total of 16 tracks in the deluxe version, but now I just have 12 tracks out of them. Basically now some tracks sound attractive to me, such as (Drop Dead) Beautiful, Seal It With A Kiss, Big Fat Ass, Trouble For Me, and Gasoline. Especially Gasoline, it reminds me of Toxic few years back. And I feel like, wow, old Britney is here!

Here's track list of this album:

1. Till The World Ends (Produced by Dr. Luke, Max Martin and Billboard)

2. Hold It Against Me (Produced by Dr. Luke, Max Martin and Co-produced by Billboard)

3. Inside Out (Produced by Dr. Luke, Max Martin and Billboard)

4. I Wanna Go (Produced by Max Martin and Shellback)

5. How I Roll (Produced by Bloodshy, Henrik Jonback and Magnus)

6. (Drop Dead) Beautiful (feat. Sabi) [Produced by Benny Blanco, Ammo, JMIKE and Billboard]

7. Seal It With A Kiss (Produced by Dr. Luke, Max Martin and Dream Machine)

8. Big Fat Bass (feat. will.i.am) [Produced by will.i.am]

9. Trouble For Me (Produced by Fraser T Smith)

10. Trip To Your Heart (Produced by Bloodshy, Henrik Jonback and Magnus)

11. Gasoline (Produced by Dr. Luke and Benny Blanco)

12. Criminal (Produced by Max Martin and Shellback)

Deluxe Edition Bonus Tracks:

13. Up N' Down (Produced by Max Martin, Shellback and Oligee)

14. He About To Lose Me (Produced by Rodney "Darkchild" Jerkins)

15. Selfish (Produced by Stargate, and Sandy Vee)

16. Don't Keep Me Waiting (Produced by Rodney "Darkchild" Jerkins)

Femme Fatale will be in stores on March 29th! Haha! (Already enjoying it now~)

Extreme Me

Yey, back to English. Guess what? This is the third weekend that I'm "really" free and enjoy. But, not so free actually, in fact, it is packed with activities. First of all, I think this week, IP will be on my way, very very soon, its like counting down the days to meet with it. Wow, I'm so looking forward to it, I should say this. Hopefully I'll still survive after all, if not, I guess most of my friends will fall down first before me too, regarding to the contribution level. Haha. I'm being too condensible to come out with these words, perhaps.

I'm not feeling well of that, ok.

So what have I done is past weekend? Yes it is already gone. Sad case...

Last Friday is the day of Ethnic report submission. I sleep late because of the Thursday night, so Friday, I'm really tired and sleepy all the day. Finishing the report, and keep on asking my group member to print it out. I've waiting quite long, and for safety purpose, finally I've printed it on my own and brought it to class. I'm quite blur as a team leader I know, I don't even know when is the presentation date for my group. I'm so... speechless. It is such lucky that my group's turn is on next Friday, phew, relieved. Hope that my team members won't hate me much for being "quite" irresponsible. MAYBE I shouldn't skip classes. So this is the consequence. So, I just wish our group will perform and present well next Friday, then this will be OVER! Thanks everyone in advance.

Friday night, finally we get to see a good house to move in in next few months. I guess, this will be our best option till now. Just that, again, I don't have any transport except public ones such as bus. So, rely on bus would be quite painful. I hope, someday I can cope with it. Other than this, the house is basically quite suitable for all of us. Quite spacious, safe. Still the same wishes, I hope we all will stay together happily, haha! I'm truly looking forward for it!

I spend again! Saturday is the day to meet with her. Spend quite a whole day at Mid Valley, watching movie, shopping, walking around, eating, and chatting of course. I just wish at least we can meet once in a week. Haha.

Sunday is another of doing nothing. I go to do a survey and get some money, thanks my friend for letting me know too. Then crazily, I go 1U to shop. And finally I've bought myself a scarf. Wow, I like it very much, although it is not so cheap. Haha! I spend again. Let me see. I think I've spent RM150 in these few days. OMG! Money is just too easy to be gone! My bad... Time to regret, a while. Sigh... I should save money especially after I move out...

So this few days I've watched the new movie World Invasion: Battle Los Angeles. No Strings Attached and Paranormal Activity 2, finally I've watched them after I've downloaded them for such a period. Don't feel like writing any review for these. Haha. Last night I took some time to youtube lots of Final Destination scenes too. As I know FD5 is coming real soon, if its not mistaken. Haha.

吵我

有时真的不明白为什么一些人说话为什么要这么的高声量。就是所谓大声。没有针对谁，自己对号入座就是自己的问题。经过我房间，上个楼梯，说话为什么不能安静些。明明一群人对话，却只听见一把声音最明显，最刺耳。或是两人对话（我也不清楚是不两人），一面只听到一方的声音，不是说明另一方说话轻声，而是赞那一方说话响亮，大声得体！我知道他们的内容不是秘密，然后，那又怎么样？想说不代表一定要飘到我的耳子上。这是天生？我看这是习惯吧，而且在某种程度上，是坏习惯。不会改过吧，人说话习惯大声，习惯自己的自吹自擂，或是想象自己有的舞台，再来认为自己声线动听，认为别人喜欢听自己说话，已经完全沉溺在自己的世界。而面对这些不懂、或不会改变的人和情况，我不知该怎么面对。我真的要学习包容，别那么在意，拜托他们的声音频率别那么明显，再劝我的耳朵别对那些杂声那么敏感。他们以为自己嘴巴播出来的是音乐。

我看到这些，我很不满，甚至想骂人，为什么这些人是这样的？

这个世界上真的什么“鬼样”的人都有，当然，参差不齐！

学会每个晚上临睡前，照照镜子，好好反省自己。想想自己有什么可以在改进的，或想想这一天里做了什么“错”的事。

但我看他们身边的人都不认为“那”是问题，那代表“那”是我的问题？

不，我有共鸣者。还好，当然。（好像很坏）=P

“怎办？他们生成就是这种死样？唉，真可怜！为他们哀悼一下。”

哀悼？开玩笑！拍戏才有咯，我做好人只会继续被欺负咯，怎么可以。

傻傻的还要帮他们找理由来过自己那关，有时很累，只是我只能怪自己是水瓶座，完美主义，不容许破坏的东西发生在自己身边。而那些，都是丑陋的，我不容易接受。继续吵我吧，可能有一天我被训练到没感觉了。我倒是希望那一天的到来 =P

静止

竟然离开这里有六天了！有点不可思议，而这几天我几乎不会想起要写部落格。忘了吗？忙吗？

最近的生活，没什么目标，一天过一天，一天算一天。上一篇是上个拜四写的，而今天已经是星期三了。现在回想，这几天到底做了什么。拜四那天逛夜市咯，还有跟Talung他们去看半夜场，The Adjustment Bureau。记得有点我的天的感觉，闷，虽然只有一小时半的长度，但感觉过于缓慢。好久没有中途去上厕所了，可见这部真的不是很吸引。幸亏Tropicana票价不会太贵。拜五是Talung生日，当然做他爱做的事，唱K咯，跟Zen还有Ken四个人一起。短暂而简单的一天，并没有隆重特地的庆祝，还真有点不好意思。我的相机也没派上用场。他很忙，嘴上挂着的是功课，我看到这样，也算了吧，不想占太多时间，而且自己也很累。所以想在房休息去，让脑袋静静，然后睡去。其实并没有这么早，加上心情有点不好也烦躁，所以比较不想见人影响他人的情绪。哇，说得还真伟大。

拜六约了个朋友wenjien，好久不见的一位。因为他说要买东西需要人陪，所以我就跟去。结果在那里却多加几位，这倒热闹了，只是我并不认识，所以话题也有限。一开始还有点想闪人的冲动，可是看我朋友拼命取悦我，想离开都不好意思了，哈哈。不错啦，又逛了一整天。晚上突发奇想去找她，然而她也意外的说OK，所以我们就去吃吃宵夜，谈谈天到六点。什么？对，到凌晨六点！还真讶异，没想到能到这么迟，我是OK，只是不知道她也可以。原来如此...

什么都没有做，又礼拜天了，钱倒是花的恐怖！真的...Project要花两百块，买手机又一笔，刚刚付CC Trip一笔，接下来还有相机和iPad，没钱没钱！可是还是不懂省钱。看来我的空虚真的要靠物质享受来填补，笑死！说到底，我还是上网了一整天，晚上才开始温习。这么乖？非也。因为拜一有test，够迟吧。

结果拜一并没什么睡到，才两小时，然后早上上课到下午，考试也死得惨惨，估计做错了，蛮粗心的，回到房后重做也花了很长时间，纳闷。而且还不知对不对的。下午的pottery class被逼skip掉了，因为下大雨，而且考试迟放人。晚上则睡得不知时日过，直到早上醒来，才知道German class有test。其实是才猛然想起，我的天！所以最后一秒才温习一点，所以...考试也死得蛮可悲的。没办法，睡了十一小时的代价。还真的补眠了不少。哈哈！

今天？意外的没有开会。也意外的没想要出去。刚才就在赶etnik的东西，都爱最后一秒，脑才有动机要做，脑才有东西肯出来。哈哈。晚上看大摇咯。宿舍生活越来越无聊，纳闷的东西越来越多，不想看的东西越来越多，不喜欢的东西更多，当然，恨的东西也很多。算厉害了吧，都三年了。是不是每个人身边一定会遇到这些事情？想要新生活，说得还简单。有些东西好像是咒语，纠缠着我不肯放，要怎么摆脱？是心魔吗？我只觉得那些事情一直跟随着我，而且越靠越近，神啊救救我。在这里写太公开？不是说我不怕给人看，只是，我想宣泄。我不喜欢的东西不多，其实。

会为自己加油！

Spoiler!

Oh no, I just get 3 comments here from Anonymous. Who is that? Doesn't want to reveal his/her/their names. But anyway, I think I get what they mean. Err, should I change the style of blogging? Change the way of my life? Change to be reveal lesser? Maybe, see how lo. HAHAH!

Hey hey hey, I just got my SE W980 last two days, which is 1st of March. Actually why I buy phone (again)? I have a silly reason, my N76 battery is spoiled, and need to be replaced at around RM30 for an AP battery. But then, I feel like want to buy a CHEAP used phone as my second phone. No, I didn't abandon my HD2 yet, just that I miss non-touch screen phone sometimes, buttons are still very nice for me, although touch screen is cool. This is my feeling after using so many phones. LOL!!!

So, I went to Padang Jawa KTM at night, just to meet that fellow, paid and done. He is such a nice seller, since I bargain with him few times and finally I get the best best price. Hehe. It took me 1.5 hour to reach that KTM, soooo far, and it was 10pm when I was there. Such late. And after the deal, I quickly returned to hostel as soon as possible, really worried that the KTM service will end too early. At last, I'm safe and reach my room before 12am. I'm crazy I know. It is enjoyable! Usually people just won't understand.

I'm glad with its condition, although no more warranty and no other accessories attached, its body is still look quite new. It is used unit as I said, and I'm not funding on some new stuff of course. Let's see how long I'll be using this phone. LOL. It is still fresh right now. I miss the UI of SE A200 so much! Simple and clean, although it is not functionable like smart phone nowadays. And I guess, it is a bit way wash out today. People always just head to smart phones. One good thing is, the non-smartphones' price will drop and drop again. Haha.

I like its design, very very much! Nothing much to say, this is my dream phone 3 years back, and now finally I have the chance to really own it. This is just my very personal feeling. Some phones are nicely designed, they're more like being used to show off, but not serious usage. And normally I will buy the functional ones, therefore I miss some of pretty phones out there. Like this one, W980, and Motorola V8, Nokia N93i. I keep on searching for them these two weeks, and finally I get a nice offer here. The seller said it has a bit problem with the fast port, and indeed, SE models always have this kind of problem. I'm back to SE. Yey.

And yesterday, iPad 2 is finally revealed. I read the report of the iPad 2 event. It is tempting! OMG!

http://www.engadget.com/2011/03/02/live-from-apples-ipad-2-event

And then I study the comparison between iPad and iPad 2. Hahah.

http://www.engadget.com/2011/03/02/ipad-2-vs-original-ipad-whats-changed/

iPad 2 is fresh and new. I feels like iPad is just released not long ago, but in fact it is released in April 2010. Such a long time. 9.7'' screen, iOS, lots of apps, games, multimedia and entertainment, online stuff. These drags me away... Oh shit. The launching of iPad 2 is a very good news by the way. I check Apple Store website last night, the price of iPad has dropped! The cheapest one, which is plain WIFI version 16G is only RM1199! It has dropped for around RM300! Ok, I see some used unit sellers and feel sympathetic for them. Their selling price is even higher than the new set from Apple Store. So I'll going to check them back and see how they revise their price. Huhuhu... I guess, this time it will drop until RM1000 or lower. Such a great news! Sorry for being sarcastic. Haha.

The new stylish look!

It's thinner! 8.6mm!

New spec! Mouth watering...

Another special add-on Smart Cover. Haha! Like this also can.

This day is will be the day many people wait for! Shipping of iPad 2!

BTW... When is Malaysia's? LOL.

Price list~

Lighter!

Gaga's Born This Way

Great! Gaga is back =D (Although I don't really know what the video means) LOL!

(It's too big here!) Anyway it is 1080p! Huhu. Enjoy the Full HD~

玩翻了！

These three I'm kind of swayed away from my dear reality. Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. It is just full of fun! Erm, I guess, not "fun" maybe, but just "things to do". Haha!

I'm so, very free since last Wednesday. That day is when we handed in our dearest IP report for 3rd Evaluation. And of course, heard all the bullshit coming out from his mouth. I sit at far behind. And my leader is somewhere far away too. I just sit with my team member and see what is happening. So pity groups have been "jeered" by him, in fact, I think we all have been seriously jeered. It's like we don't know anything about what have we studied in our first year and second year. Wow. I've lost my memories maybe. But! Anyway, I can see some are doing well, in front of his eyes, so finally his mouth is "shut-ed" up slowly. I can see my leader is doing it confidently too, great! At least, we three members, sitting at far far away, still can feel that "we're safe". I didn't take part in drawing, so I guess I don't really have much reasons to feel worried too, I'm just helping others to "feel". LOL. What am I talking about? It's like, if the persons in charge don't really complain much, or feel angry or anxious, then why should I be the one who feel that? It doesn't make sense. So, congrats to all of us, and for those who do well of course. And yey, we're still left with the last final evaluation! Wow. Scary.

Last Thursday I already feel so emptied after the report submission. LOL for me. And finally the weekend is here. Friday I'm going out with Cherwei. Around 2pm, after my long sleep and late waking-up. For going out, I even miss the chance chatting with my ex-roomate Edmund. Yes, he drops by here that day, and I'm shocked. I guess he's quite exhausted recently, he becomes slimmer a little, and pimple's coming out. Sorry that I can't entertain you that day~ Hope there'll be a next chance where I'm still staying in college when you drop by here. Haha!

Going to sing karaoke with Cherwei from 3pm to 6pm. Typical 3 hours and it's just two of us, having fun. The food is quite nice, maybe because I'm too hungry to have my first meal of the day at 4pm. Opps, forget to tell I'm singing at Redbox Lowyat Plaza. After that, I'm going to do survey of my speedlite. Yes I plan to get one, Nissin Di622 mark II. The price I get is at least RM480. Sigh, I wonder how my roomate Choonvern gets such low price. I'm quite desperate for it by the way. Considering YongNuo too, which is cheaper. I wish to get one before MATB2, of course. Luckily it is postponed until end of this month. Therefore I still have more time to do more survey, price-asking, and make the most suitable decision. Oh gosh, spending money again. RM400-500 this time. I really should think twice, or even triple on this matter.

After dinner at KFC, which is our typical dinner location, we head for the movie I Am Number Four. Quite low rated movie, but usually this kind of entertaining movie won't get high ratings. So, this is one of them, quite entertaining. The graphic is somehow great at some parts, but quite lame for a little parts too. Storyline is quite new, why is that he is number four? Background is not clear but I guess it is quite unnecessary. The most important thing is, we enjoy this movie, better than last time, the Tron Legacy. Hehe. Anyway, we miss Show Lo's show at Pavilion. Fate. I wish to meet him too, but we have bought the movie ticket at that period. So, what can we do? No fate.

So Friday activity ends around 11pm. So I'm back to my room and my roomate is home again. So free, and I'm looking forward for my Saturday. Anyway, Saturday is whole empty, I can only sit in front of my laptop, survey the price of gadgets (always), and dump my head in social networks. Then the whole day is gone. Until the night falls, 71 and me finally come out with a strange idea to go out. We ask some people but at last no one is following. We two then starta random outing, without plan. We reach Mid Valley at around 9.30pm then we shop for a little while before the stores close. Indeed really short, just half an hour! LOL. Then what else can we do? Actually if we hang out earlier we still can shop for some clothes and wearing. But no.

We gets to GSC to check whether there is any movie we want to watch. But no. Then guess what, we go to Library to have some drinks. This is my very first time there. So, I've been a serious noob. I don't know what to order, and I just know how to drink. So, 71 orders some and helps me too. Poor me and thanks 71. In total, we order 5 drinks, which cost RM120. Wow. RM60 for each of us. For me, 1 Tequila shot, 1 Gin and Tonic, and 0.5 Absinthe. Actually its kind of awkward for us to hang out and drink, with no other entertainment or friend companion. But I'm quite excited to taste and try out, sorry for being nerd in this field. Haha. It's a great experience, just too money-killing. Haha. So called money-killing. After that it's already 12am. We plan to sing karaoke (again) for midnight, because we don't really want to go back. But, it is damn expensive! RM46++ per person! Omg, it is Saturday night. We think twice and finally cancel the plan. Hence we're trying to kill time, walking around and eating mamak for two times separately. Feels gay. LOL. Walking, taking photos, chatting... and finally it is 6am! Yea! Finally the taxi fee is back to normal rate, and hence we head back to college. I can say, this is the craziest night I have in this semester at UM!

Actually it is really tiring, to do nothing much. The midnight of Mid Valley is quite empty, and we're so scared of security guards who will chase us away. Haha! So I sleep at 7.30am on Sunday morning. Until 1pm. I wake up and seriously I plan to start study for Tuesday test. But my plan changes again! I go out with 71(again!) and Jessica to shop for new clothes. Wow. We go out at around 4pm, without eating. Firstly we go 1U then we go Times Square. We just plainly go for shopping and eating. At last I just manage to do survey too, and I still don't know what I want to wear at MATB2. I don't want to spend much money but I think this is the last dinner for me at 2nd College. So... Sigh. Luckily it is been postponed, I still have more time to make decision. Hehe. Repeated sentence. Finally we're back to college at around 11pm. Then I feel like, this weekend I'm so rich! And free and relax! It's like I don't have any test. Wah.

Anyway, it is too late to regret. So, just enjoy my life, as usual. Haha!

Tiny Update =)

So, i just did a really tiny update here, adding a new video. A sweet song! Addicted these few days. HAHA! Auburn's "All About Him". Huhu..

E3

laugh my ass off! now i m at my department. cad lab in detail. what we are doing? so many of us. jiang jiang! time to hand in 3rd evaluation for our IP. my dearest IP. lol. and guess who is talking in front. that dearest fellow too.

一個很聰明，可是以為自己更聰明的人。會做事?不得而知。只是肯定嘴巴大過天，大到;想剪裂那種。腦殘，還有。怎麼夠?整身肥肉，丑臭!短幾年命吧。這麼可愛。明天被人操死，操到趴地!我怕我會笑不出來，因為油很骯髒。他這世人不知幾時才學會說好話，或許他享受給人咒吧，好刺激喔!

wow,everywhere is full of tension. what? final evaluation is on study week? week 13 and 14? haha! i may say, good luck to all of us.

but but but, anyway, perhaps i m not that hurt, coz i m not doing much ma. lol. easy. just hope that my friends will be alright after all. =)

Monday! Busy like...

Leaving weekend, and today is Monday! Great Monday! Holy Monday! Busy Monday~ Sigh. Let share my schedule today. Morning 9am, the first tutorial class, untill 11am. Then I

m heading to SKET to check and prepare my pottery work, until 12.30pm. After that, I go to KPS and CIMB Bank with Yting, until 1pm. Finally I have the first meal of the day, lunch, until 1.20pm. After that, I'm back to room and prepare something for meeting afterward, yes, I didn't prepare anything before this. Haha. Bad leader, and not looking like leader too. LOL. Ok, 2pm, meeting around 0.5 hour. Then I have class from 3pm to 5pm. Then again, I'm going to SKET for pottery class until 7pm. Finally, dinner time and chatting time until 7.30pm. Yey, I'm free, finally.

Tired. Monday is always a busy and packed day for me. Sigh. Not really have the time to have Monday blue though. LOL.

MATB2 is coming. I think this is the last dinner night for me in 2nd College. Must go. But who am I going to sit with? Still considering and finding people. Haha. I need a flash for my camera, oh no, am I going to spend again? Sigh.

答案 (未完成)

答案

[Verse 1]

晨曦 我还不想入睡

曙光已残忍的将我的梦击碎

捻转了几回 却不足我想得多累

只可惜 我还不会后悔

[Verse 2]

撤退 趁我还没崩溃

熄灯后的我却迷途无路可回

超越了范围 天空布满思念的泪

静静的 这样选择没有对 不对

[Chorus]

我不想假装 在你面前我怎么输得漂亮

冲圆场 暗地为自己疗伤 无所谓只是自欺的谎话

我不懂伪装 你一句答案可我却放不下

再逞强 我再难堪 何时才能 从回忆里自由

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未完成的一首，也是非常之普通的一首，真得好久好久没动笔了。唉，至少一年或两年了。这次，只是心血来潮，当然希望过后还会有这种“心血来潮”的机会咯！LOL.

Laugh me Out

Haha! I think I get some inspiration from a friend's blog post, JiaNee's one. She's writing about her new shirt, jean and shoes! Wow! Great! Suddenly I just feel like, I'm really getting into these already, without my knowledge maybe. Perhaps you guys don't really understand what am I trying to say. Erm. Actually, just going to be branded. Haha, maybe I'm a bit late, compared to those who are rich. LOL. My dad bought me, for sure I don't have that ability to spend that amount of money. I just get them last month. My new Adidas, and my Edwin jeans too, just left a shirt. Haha! Maybe they're ok for some, but not me. Few hundreds are spent on this, my dad. I'm still, not going to spend like this. But I'm happy to have them, of course. Haha!

Yey, that's short! Night! Gute Nacht!

One of a Kind

Haha, actually I google these word for its meaning just now. I see. Unique.

Nothing much related to what am I going to blog today, actually. Today's going to be another boring day for me. I can see, while others are busy to do the project, but I'm still here. I hope I've done, at least, something, to the report. I know it is really little. I feel quite awkward to be in this situation actually, feel like I'm not in this same course with them. Haha... I've been stuck much on this point. I should get along with everything now. The most suffering period is yet to come. I know.

And congrats too, the deadline for the report has been tragically delayed to next week. Last minute notice. What a funny one. Maybe someone just lose his mind, or his brain is so busy for some other stuff. Then we're getting played around too. FUN. LOL. I know I suffer not much, actually, so I should shut up too. Haha.

Maybe I should start studying now. I'm just too free to think of so many stuff! Looking on those couples' photos during Valentines day, it is indeed really romantic. This pushes me to feel more alone after all. Sad case.

情侣的天

Monday, an ordinary day. I remember that I'm rushing for an assignment last midnight at around 3am, but in the end, I've no need to hand it in. ZZZ. Just take it as my revision then. Today 9am, as usual, I'm a little too on time, wake up on time. 9am. Omg. Then I can just rush to toilet and prepare myself for the class. Luckily it is okay, and I still manage to catch up. Still waiting for the next tutorial sent via email by tutor.

I really need to sleep after that class, but I'm too happy to see new things for my HD2. Yes, I'm going to boot it in Windows Phone 7 like HTC HD7! Another new and fresh OS after Android 2.2 Froyo. This phone, I didn't make the wrong choice. Hehe. It is more than 1 year old, but its specification is still comparable with new phones nowadays. Keep it running ya! Android 2.3 Gingerbread is coming, I'm looking forward for it. Hope that it can be TOTALLY ported, making me feel like I'm using some new phone, but no need to change it. Like Nexus S? Haha! Like HD7? Like Desire HD? Haha! Hardware wise is quite comparable still, although I know, the screen is far left behind. I mean the colour and material, but not the 4.3'' size! Hehehe. Proud, and enjoy large view. Suitable for my weak eyes.

Raining heavily now, just now just finish a funny talk at DTC. Used up my 1-2 hours. Ooops. Later I still have another class, sigh. So am I going to enjoy tonight? They're having celebration or gathering with us, Zen and me. I'm just a bit tired and sleepy now. Transportation, I don't even know their plan, or do I need to plan it too. Err, sometimes I feel like joining to even plan it, which make it easier for me. So let's say we're planning for Zen's birthday, so I would join and plan it too. Heheh. Frankly I still feel like, I'm a little better at organizing gathering and outing. No offense lo, just say it, in term of communication. Maybe I'm just too free to keen on communicating (when I'm the organizer). Haha. Thanks frenz *LUV~

So, Happy Valentine's Day!

23's Day

That's not my day, that's not my day. =D

Still single, and don't know I'll be single until what time.

Anyway, that is plain crap, obviously I'm not going to purposely start a post and write those things. I would like to write about my birthday, hehehe, if you've noticed. Yes, my birthday in 2011. It is 11.02.2011. A beautiful and unique date. I know somehow, it doesn't mean anything, but it is just special in my heart. I have my 3.5 days packed with enjoyment. (Do this word exist?) LOL.

So, I leave my blog alone for 3.5 days too. I know these few days I'm really getting desperate of getting people to hang out with me, to spend time with me. I'm crazily finding friends as well. Haha! Fortunately there're always some good and kind people that are willing to spend their time on me. Hehe~ Huge thanks to them! Love you guys =D

Starting from Thursday I'm getting sad and sad, as I'm feeling more and more alone. This sentence might sound funny, but I think, that is what exactly on my mind. Sorry but sometimes I just can't control my mind much, keep thinking on the negative side. I know I have quite a number of friends, but then, the real best friends always don't seem to be a large number too. Sad but that's the reality. I'm always keen on getting know more friends, and I hope I can make more real best friends too. This is one of my wishes, too. I just hope whenever I need some help, there're still someones beside me, ready to help or just listen to me complaining. That's it.

Getting spammed on fb is what will happen throughout Friday. So in the end, I get around 200 wall posts regarding birthday wishes, glad to see some posts are quite special and funny, love it, and enjoy reading them. Hehe! And I spend around an hour to reply all of them too, that's my appreciation.

Thursday night I'm with Feverdog. Thanks him for spending whole night with me. Dinner, movie and chatting too. We're firstly at Mid Valley, eating Pasta Zanmai, and watching I Love HK, then at last we go Wings Cafe at SS2, passing my 12am, listening to our favourite songs and having some pillow talks. It is great. That's not the end, when we get back, we go to Secret Recipe at UH, and guess what, I'm having the first cake of my birthday this year. Haha! 2.30am, then we are leaving. That night is quite long, full of chatting. Thanks for not being tired to share, hehe!

So, it is Friday and I'm getting a date with Talung, Ken and special guest WeiHan. I would assume he purposely come from Ipoh to celebrate my birthday, yey, this sounds much better in my ear! Friday morning I sleep until 11am, which is quite late. I ever plan to go Mid Valley (again) earlier to have my very own time, walking or eating perhaps. But anyway, I sleep too late and so I have to cancel my own plan. With Talung and Ken two brothers, we are going to Mid Valley at around 1.30pm, and we're going to sing K! That's what I want. Perhaps I didn't tell any of them, I really want to go Redbox that day, haha! Maybe they can read my mind, or my mind is so catch-able. Haha! That's just too nice for me. So, four hours are quite smooth for me, enjoy that. Hope you guys enjoy too, although I sing quite a lot, my birthday ma, heheheh! Thanks!!

So I think Friday's outing will be soon ended after singing and eating dinner... Our dinner is at 老油鬼鬼, so indeed it will be very short... But then they manage to have me in surprise by giving me a simple birthday celebration. Maybe my words do that, but I really don't mean that I request for it, I just simply mention it. Hehe... Ok, my bad maybe. Anyway, that is totally a shock! Suddenly Talung and WeiHan bring me two Secret cakes and I feel like, wow! And Ken's acting skill is getting good, I never suspect anything. Awwhh... That's not me at all. OK, that is sweet. I'd assume you all have planned it... Haha! Jessica too, even though she already leave after sing K but, there're cakes too. Thanks lo! Hehe.

I still don't feel like leaving after all, so I drag them to GSC to choose a movie before Friday ends. Devil me. Haha! So at last after their hard work, we manage to buy tickets for 最强喜事. That time I'm desperately using me free Maxis call, at last minute. I've wasted it. Hmm. So I just managed to call MinLi and Derek. Chatted a while before watching movie and after movie ends. And we go back by taxi of course. And then there's something I cannot write down here, because it is not safe. LMAO! Ignore that okay. That night we have a long and somehow pointless chat with 71. He is not leaving my room until 6am, OMG! So funny, everything, I'm so tired and sleepy, and all the topics are getting funnier. Ish... At last I end up sleeping at his room until 10am, then continue sleeping at my room until noon. So tired! But I enjoy all the session, friends~

Saturday, I'm up at noon so I'm just left with half day. Derek finally reach from JB and we have our outing with Feverdog to Pavilion at around 4.30pm. Again, eating, walking, crapping, and movie too. I've spend a lot these three days!! Luckily my friends are treating me some parts, hehehe! YEY! Saturday's movie is 我知女人心. So basically I watch one movie each day. WOW. Spend money like using water. Err... My bad. But it is my birthday, and the worst thing is, I enjoy spending money, haiz! Haha! So we have our outing until around 11pm then we take taxi back. Feverdog feels like sick, omg, take care eh. Thanks Derek for coming here, but kind of bad because today Sunday and Monday I'm not free to meet again.

My birthday is about having fun. I'm the photographer all the time, so even though it is my birthday, my photos aren't getting more too. Hahah! I understand. Quite lazy to post photos here. Err. Not yet copy to pc some more.

So Sunday finally comes... And I've spent whole day doing IP and FEA. Finally done. Sigh. So... My birthday celebrations, I think, that's all. Thanks all!! All the wishes too! Thanks Dad for calling me, hehe!

Actually I don't plan to write it now, but it seems quite long already, it is 5.30am now, wow again... Sleep too late. Night.