Out of My Head!!!

离开我的脑袋，离开我的视线，离开我的思绪，离开我的想法，离开我的意见，离开我的指尖，离开我的话题，离开我的光阴，离开我的灵魂，离开我的世界…
我不知如何面对我的无言，哪根筋被扯着了，不曾飞上天的风筝，线已被一刀剪短。
现实如此不堪，如果一切不曾存在，或许更好，我宁愿不要记得这些剩下的痕迹。
谁比谁狠，我比你犯贱，我彻底的输了。
很闪电的年终最后一份惊喜。
有什么更惊讶的，我也想知道，如果一切本来就是零。
毫无保留，既然已一笔画上选择，就当我从来都不曾打算阻止。
世界本来都如此美妙，现实都是非常好笑，因为，我太可笑。
但愿一切并不深刻，转眼回忆就不见。
失望，是丧失原本拥有的希望。
我，还剩下什么。

" I was wondering, would you cry for me?
If I told you that I couldn't breathe, if I was drowning, suffocating,
If I told you that I couldn't breathe.
I was wondering, would you reach for me?
If you saw that I was languishing..." - Mariah Carey "Languishing"

既然一切都不能离开了我，那我就干脆自己走开。
你赢了，你对了，我应该上了这一课。
我欠缺你应该享有的。
所以…

下课。

新……

假期就先告一段落了，接下来又回到了这里，继续这里的生活。盲目的追求…没什么目标？并不见得。其实有太多东西想追求了，人，就是贪，就是不满。或许这样才有进步…其实我要的并不多，只要快乐随时存在。而还好的是，我懂得制造快乐，懂得选择快乐！

幸亏成绩是有点意外惊喜，但还是觉得缺缺的，向上冲吧！希望上回的成绩并不只是暂时幸运，而是看得到我的努力。有谁不想看到自己的努力有结果？希望归希望，新学期了，希望我真的办得到当初认为的。暂时撇开一切消极…朋友们也加油！学业不是最重要，但享受人生之余，希望大家能提升，也维持我们大学的水准咯！哈哈！可能马大的位置能越冲越高…

音乐，还只是在听，开始不怎么懂得写了。有点遗憾，只怪自己不努力，也不争取机会。也许有甜，有谁给我点启发，让我继续我所拥有的，或是我该坚持的。越来越疯英语流行歌了，华文歌的水准可说是越降越低。尽管我听尽张张专辑，真正深刻的，好听的，有意义的并不多…叹气。反而，Beyonce, Lady GaGa之类的，什么类型都好，就是不太一样。我们真的要加油，不然就陷下去了…

手机，坦言还不够…我的天，还不知足。看中的例如：Samsung M8910 Pixon12, Omnia II, Omnia HD, HTC Touch HD 2, SE Satio等等。真的不贵不看…吃力。因为用着C905了，换W995,Aino等都不值。还有Omnia，接下来选择也不多了，哈哈…或许再败LG Crystal, SE W980来搞搞，也许有一天。败家一民。有没有很好奇为什么我不选N记？哈哈…

先到这里，或许会再写大长篇，因为年末了！2009即将完毕…

12:53pm
2009.12.29

Ho-ho Ho-Li-Day

Well, I have so long time that didn't update this blog... Guess that it may look so abandoned currently. Oh pity blog, where's your author? Hmmm. Where am I this two months? Feel like, I'm just too busy with my little tiny life out there. Not really easy to end all of those exam papers, and now! Finally I'm home, of course, already for few days. So unfortunately that I'm sick just when I reach home. It's like my body knows that "I'm home" then it felt so tired and exhausted, for these damn long period. Not having nice food or lifestyle perhaps, but that's me... Wao... So proud of these? I don't think so.

Today I'm not going to write that long. Actually I'm in rush by the way... U know, I have no streamyx or Wi-Fi at my home, so it seems like, I'm wasting lots of money if I write grandma story here... Any reader drops by here? Haizzz.. What am I doing...

These two months can be said going on too soon or... too slow... Activities? I admit that I'm so not into them now. I just want to pass rest of my next sem life in peace, I'm tired of that. Maybe it is such a passive opinion...? But for sure, everyone has his/her way to spend his/her time/days. Its not necessary like, Wao you take part in so many "things" then you are so "enriched". Childish statement I think. Just measure until which level I can do, then just go for it. So, next sem, back to studies and fun, friendship! Yea I'm naive. But, why so serious?

Exam period is just killing me. It's so damn long, why is it? I just have 8 papers, I thought I can take it, but at least, I end up so tired, and out of my head~~~ Dizzy~~~ I should have said that the schedule is nice for us to do revision, but its too violent to drag our time until so long. Everybody is having fun while we are still under pressure. What for? I should have said also, long revision time... I think nobody will really seriously use up all of it. So, the answer is: my pointer is dropping down, again. Haiz... Don't sad, cause its useless to regret also... Haha! One more thing, I wonder why my coursemates don't like spending time together... Where's comity and unity?

Continue with my interest. Changing phone again... Hehehe. This turn is LG Renoir to Samsung Omnia, and Sony Ericsson K850i to C905. So, have fun dealing with those new models. Why not iPhone again? Haha... Perhaps in next change. It's already December, wish that I will have some enjoyable times in this holiday! I want trips and travel...

Christmas + Happy New Year is coming soon.

01:48am
2009.12.03