Look inside the mirror

照镜，反省。什么时候才停止抱怨？什么时候才肯改变？什么时候才不需要做不必要的打扰？什么时候才能成熟的面对问题？

要是抱怨能解决问题…那人们到可以继续抱怨， 别停止。抱怨自己的生活，鸡蛋里挑骨头。不如看看身边的其他人过得怎样，再看看自己过得如何。每个人都需要面对自己的生活。每个人每一天都在前进。谁得空停下来听你的夸张说话？这个世界需要的是关怀、在乎、温暖，而不是处处放大自己的问题，把一切变得复杂。把自己的视线移开点，一来可以给友人多一点的关心，二来可以不那么在意及夸大自己的问题。八卦般的抱怨、或轻微的倾诉可以为自己增加话题，是没错。诸不知过分的“我要死了啊！”或“你不懂我有多累的啦！”只会一次一次的消耗交谈者的耐性。

说了抱怨，当然要改进，而不是一而再、再而三的重复相同的问题，把自己一次又一次的困在相同的苦境。每个人都需要为自己的生活安排，为自己的决定负上责任。

拼了命放大自己的问题和苦境，是为了什么？要来对方的关心和配合回答？当个对自己生活负不上责任的小孩？吸引目光？

向上向善，我希望看到更好的你们和更好的自己。或许我真的不明白抱怨和投诉有什么好处，因为我看不到。自锁不予，勿施于人。

期待

好不容易，好不容易。今天终于呈上thesis和presentation了！轻飘飘的度过，忘了睡眠，因为总是全部工作拖到最后一分钟才竣工。无可救药的态度，懒惰，就连这份大家都认为如斯重要的东西，也是草率赶工而成的。品质？我看算了吧。只盼望能顺顺利利过关，谢天谢地。

好久没这么轻松了，是打从心底的松懈，如释重负的感觉。

回头看看，这样，就四年了。

脑海里总是在这个时候浮现很多人和事物。对的错的，拥有的和失去的。这一切都好不容易。此刻的我，完全在期待接下来的步伐。过去的，已成为历史。总有无数的玩笑发生在周围。超出想象范围的，出乎意料的，难以置信的，自以为是的。人生如戏，如果没有变换的剧情，怎么有精彩无穷的情节呢？

对于未知的下一步，周围人和事物的变化，我依然期待。

3rd Phone in my 2012

As you may know, I'm the person who always keep an eye on the market price of phones. It's really tempting, especially when I saw there's some random price drops on certain phone. Yah, I mean certain phone. I'm truly biased, as there's certainly something that I like or I want from certain phones. Nah, I don't really the person that only know how to throw money into it, and simply pick the most expensive ones, or the most well-known ones. That's just not me.

Just like any other things, the most expensive mobile phones may really mean that "Oh, it packs all that functions and features, and everything." The selection can be easily come into the conclusion, if you are the one who wants the so-called "best" things. Well, just ignore this paragraph, I don't really understand what I'm trying to say. Skip this.

Okay, my first phone of this year is iPhone 4. This phone is special, enough. It is the first phone I ever changed, just for somebody. Perhaps, affected by somebody. Such a nice memory, although it is undeniably so over. Forget about that, I'm now talking about phones. iPhone 4 is certainly not the best device for me, in some aspects. Yes, I bought it after 4s comes out. (Which makes me in dilemma whether I want to switch to 4s or not, now and then.) Based on financial condition, and my way of expense in mobile phones, I'm not that kind of people who will throw huge amount of money into a SINGLE phone. You can see the SINGLE word means. HAHAHA. At first I just want to try it out, as I never use any iPhone in my history. It turns out quite satisfying. Okay, if I have to compare, the performance wise, for sure my previous Galaxy S2 is faster, and iPad 2 also, very fast. But in term of usability, I mean, I really use it a lot, I want to bring it out everytime, it's not as bulky as some 4-point-something-inch-display devices. Not to mention, the famous choice Galaxy Note (5.3") and even bigger Galaxy Tabs. When I get back from 7" Tab, I feel totally... relax and free of burden. Galaxy S2 is slim and light-weight enough, but it is a little wide. Anyway, this is just personal preference. I've heard people complaining that 3.5" is so outdated and too small, and they are going for big and huge size devices. After few months of using 4.3" and 7", eventually I'm tired of them. Sometimes, small is good. It's quite convenient. When I want to jump... LOL... jump.

The second phone is quite out-of-sudden. Heard of CSL? I got CSL MI410. It has many names as I know, which related to the same device, such as Motorola Triump and Huawei X6. Here I can say, the brand name means a lot, and costs a lot. It's an Android device, with Gingerbread. It has 1GHz Qualcomm single core processor, this is unbelievable, it is same as some well-known devices such as Galaxy S, Desire, Xperia Arc blablabla. Those example are expensive compared to this CSL phone, almost double the price of it. I mean, at the same processor speed and specification. It has all the others have, such as GPS, large screen (4.1"), WIFI. The drawback I can see is the touchscreen sensitivity and the camera. That's maybe the reasons why it is so cheap compared to those well-known brands. Anyway, for daily usage, I find that it is up to my requirement.

OK, so this year I've tried Apple and CSL.

Regarding the price drop, I would like to list down some of the phones that I'm interested in:

Samsung Infuse 4G

- I like this design so much. Although spec wise it is not surprising, but I just want to feel, how does 4.5" feel in hand. LOL.

Samsung Galaxy Nexus

- The price I mention is price for AP set. And its price is dropping like hell. This week, it drops reaching around RM1.25k. OMG this is so tempting for such a huge device, and ICS. 

iPhone 4s

- As I mentioned, supposingly its an upgrade from iPhone 4. But is it really worthy? Its price is still on the high-side.

Samsung Galaxy Note

- Yah almost everyone wants it, after Galaxy S2. It's certainly an upgrade after S2 and its price for AP set is now ONLY around RM1.5k. It's a 6-months-old device, and S3 is coming, that's why its price drops. So probably I'll make a tough comparison between Note and S3. Usually I pick the aesthetic ones. LOL. No I didn't say S3 is ugly, no.

There's still some other phones in the middle end that I keep an eye on them. Such as Desire HD, Milestone, in order to replace my second phone. I don't really want the comparison on spec, I prefer the real life usability. Blah, crap again.

OK, till next then.

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Short Listing

Today I'd like to talk about... my phone. Yep, that's it. Sounds boring huh? ... Then just leave, whatcha waiting for?

Haha! I don't really mean that. LOL.

Okay, back to topic. 8th December, just got myself my 8th phone in this year. Firstly, don't think that I have lots of money to be spent in this matter, I'm just selling out my phone in order to fund in the next gadget. And I don't really always spend on the "monsters" or "legendary species". LOL. All I want is to get the experience of using them.

Here is my listing of phones changed in this year.

2010.12 - 2011.07 HTC HD2 T8585

2011.03 - 2011.04 Sony Ericsson W980 8GB

2011.07 - 2011.07 Sony Ericsson Satio U1i [11 days]

2011.07 - 2011.07 Sony Ericsson Xperia Arc LT15i [12 days]

2011.07 - 2011.11 Samsung Galaxy Tab P1000 16GB 3G+WiFi

2011.09 - Currently Nokia N96 16GB

2011.11 - 2011.11 Apple iPad 2 16GB WiFi [10 days]

2011.11 - 2011.12 Samsung Galaxy SII i9100 16GB [11 days]

2011.12 - Currently Samsung Galaxy Tab 7.0 Plus P6200 16GB 3G+WiFi

Hmm. I can see there's 4 devices that I've used about 10 days. Surely there's some reasons for letting them go that fast.

HTC HD2 is the craziest phone I ever have. I keep flashing from WM6.5 to Android 2.2 to Android 2.3 and to WP7 too. I think it really gets tired when it's with me. LOL. Backup and flash, and restore. I've really spent a lot of times on that phone. And it lets me learn a lot of things about how to use Android. I mean, know how to use, not that kind of oh-it's-damn-easy thingy. Its not complicated, yet it's not so simple.

SE W980. Simple and pretty. I love the design, fold design still gets my attention. Simple Walkman phone with a little bit of "touch" buttons and 8GB storage. Anyway I have bad experience regarding the Fast Port on it. Can't really listen to music peacefully using it.

SE Satio. 12MP camera? My first move to that stage of 12MP camera which is even higher resolution that my 1000D. LOL. Again, I like the design of that phone, and the camera look. However, S60v5 really makes me... having no thought of turning back to it. Touch UI is not ergonomic and not user-friendly. And the phone's performance is slow. I'm still fond of that phone, if I use it as my back up phone, or just some occasions to show it up.

SE Xperia Arc. Again, SE. The reason I let it go in 10 days is its price is dropping like hell. I can't let my cash invested on it becomes thinner each day. So, I sold it fast. If I still have a chance today to have it in my pocket, I will be really happy. I love the design, very slim and classy. Not only "like", but I "love" it. But anyway, its performance... I feel like my old HD2 is even better than it, except the camera and display. I get quite disappointed with SE for making so few internal memory on it, I just don't have enough space to install all my apps. That is bad.

Samsung Galaxy Tab. Finally, Samsung. I'm so looking forward to have a Galaxy device since Galaxy S and Galaxy Tab is so popular, and most importantly, they looked tempting and tasty to me. I must take one, I tell myself. At last I choose Galaxy Tab, 7" display is in my hand! I can't measure how bulky it is, or how useful it is. It can be fitted into most of my pockets, but it really produces a big bulge. LOL. And it is not so convenient and not light weight. But... Its 7" display trades off almost every trouble. Better display, better web browsing experience, better multimedia and gaming purpose. The problem is that it "only" has a 1GHz processor, which is good (same as Galaxy S), but not good enough (Galaxy SII just rolled out). Its phone functionality also has limitation where it only can use loud speaker for voice calls.

Nokia N96. My reason is simple. I want a cheap phone with good camera, big display, non-touch screen, and WiFi. Sometimes I get tired of using touch screen where sometimes it doesn't respond to my fingers, or my fingers always miss it. Using a typical phone with buttons feel good too, I miss the real tactile feedback of pressing keypad. LOL. The N96 does almost what I've asked for, the only problem is that its processor is slow.

iPad 2. A sudden decision to purchase an iPad 2. Its full of fun, its full of rules of iOS, its full of games. Its very fast, iOS is really responsive on its dual core A5 processor. Camera is lousy but at least it has camera. I've FaceTime-ed for the first time in my life, LOL. I love the 9.7" display, which is really brilliant and responsive. The only problem is, it is too big to be brought around, and its WiFi issue. Its connection to WiFi is very weak, and it disconnects from time to time. I sell it because I found it too hard to be brought around when I go out.

Samsung Galaxy SII. Finally, I have my first dual core phone, I believe that I've chose the one of the best dual core phones out there. Again, Samsung processor is really fast and responsive. It seldom lets me wait even I have at least 9 pages of apps on it. Its very slick, thin and light-weight. But I found that I have difficulties when holding it because it is too light and thin. I almost drop it from my hands for a couple of times. Everything is great, just that I can't really go back to 4.3" display. Its not so useful as my eBook reader. By the way, Super AMOLED Plus display is really awesome and unforgettable.

Samsung Galaxy Tab 7.0 Plus. An upgrade from original Galaxy Tab. Yep, it is dual core, it is Honeycomb, it is slimmer and lighter than the original one. Although I consider that it is a downgrade from SII... This is what I currently want. I don't know how long will I use it. Just, at the moment, I feel alright.

No, I really plan for a short update, but it ends up not really short. Ok, time to sleep. Gotta go back to KL tomorrow and face the reality again. Sigh. Night.

Priority

说实在的，每个人每一天都有二十四小时，不够时间用是肯定的。每天从睡梦中醒来总是有着一大列的事情等着我们去完成。我自问没那个能力去完成每一件事，毕竟我每天都有很多想做到的事，想要达到的目标。就一个很简单的例子，我要好好的刷牙，很有节奏和步骤的刷牙，那个是为了我健康的目的，这何尝不算是一件要完成的事？可是我几乎每天都办不到，每次都轻率的带过。这么小的一件事，我竟然办不到？不可能吧。但，这绝对有可能。

这又怎么有关系到大件事和小件事叻？这是在于我怎么衡量这件事的重要性，或，我在不在乎完成这件事。一些很小件的事，我若是在乎，我就会去做到。我甚至觉得这个＂在不在乎＂更是超越我们理智的范围。潜意识操控？那我就不得而知了，并没了解过那方面的东西。继续刚才的例子，我为什么办不到好好的刷牙，健康的刷牙？原因很简单，我总是睡迟。更具体来说，我把时间留给了睡眠。在睡眠与好好刷牙之中，我选择了睡眠。

而这个就是我今天想说的东西。

我从来不会觉得我有多余的时间，我怎么可能会有多余的时间？同时，我也很奇怪，也很不喜欢别人说我看起来很得空，很轻松。他们何以见得？我知道那种感觉，就是，别人问我有没有时间去这个做那个的时候，大部分的人都会＂突然＂变得很忙，不知道是真忙，还是假忙。总之就是让别人知道自己不够他忙，就输了。这种感觉要不得。我也会有，我努力说服自己，我何必把自己说到那么忙？不如看看自己有没有兴趣，或肯不肯花时间。

我觉得把一切罪名都推给时间还真的有点不负责任。每个人一出生都面对同一个问题，一天只有二十四小时，怎么办？并不是一部分人的问题，而是每个人都处于同一道问题前面。答案是，在于自己怎么管理和运用那仅有的二十四小时。

有些事情总有优先权，比如说，大考即将到来，有些人拼命喊没时间，立刻埋头苦干，有些人也哭嚷着没时间，转个身却在玩game。为什么会这样？难道他们时间特别多？并不见得。他们不在乎？那很难说。我觉得，那只是gaming和娱乐依然是他们的优先选择，而另一部分的人则把学业放在第一位。可笑的是，有点当局者迷，有些人总是不知道选择权都在自己手上。我可以选择把gaming放在比学业高的位置，相等的位置，或较低的位置。这东西，是个选择啊！苦笑。为什么总是怪罪在其他东西身上？为什么说自己被逼？为什么说自己没得选？如果自己能够退一步看看，我相信要了解现况不会难。只是，我发现到的是，往往自己都不会知道，是自己封了自己死路。

我依然会在不知不觉中封自己死路，忘了很多事情其实都有选择的权利和机会。

学习少点责怪别人或身边的东西，很多时候那些都是自己做的选择。自己得为做过的选择负上一定的责任。

瞎说自己没时间，不如想想自己怎么安排时间。我宁愿睡少四个小时来换取四个小时的娱乐时间，因为它占了在我心目中很高的位置。这是我的选择。你要是说学业或是什么事情把你搞到没时间剩下了，那也是你的选择。我从来就不会相信＂有时间剩下＂这句话，因为我也没有时间是多余的，在我眼前只看到你做了的选择，还有所有的优先和位置。